Is this even normal? What is happening to my life

Friends are such an important part of my life and I have realised that so much recently. As you can probably see from my previous blog posts, I have talked about my friend not speaking to me as much because she has a boyfriend. I have realised now how much it actually affects me, it makes me angry and upset, I’ve even had a cry about it a few times. I feel like i have to keep swapping who I am friends with because they always find someone better.

All I really want to do is have someone there for me, someone who always keeps me on my feet and is there for me. Someone who i can have a laugh with and who looks out for me. Is that really so hard to ask for? I thought i found that friend and now we hardly speak, as she got with the guy I used to like.

It just gets to me at times, shit like this happens in reality and I just have to get over it, but at the moment i’m finding it rather difficult to do that.

 

So recently…

Not really been up to much to be honest,

Not been dancing in a while. Feel kinda slobby. Been talking to my ex boyfriend, thinking I’m still in love with him when I’m not. Revising for exams, working every weekend. Have no money.

Yeah not sounding so good I know.

I just want these exams over and done with, I cant wait for university. I want to get out meet new people, I want me and my ex boyfriend to be friends but its harder than it sounds. I can’t wait until my best friend is 18 then we can go out together! However I am having my room done at the moment, a wall has just been knocked down to make it bigger and I have just chosen my new wallpaper, black and white, its gorgeous!

20 days until my first exam and i havent even started revising :/

However 23 days until college ends, yippeeeeeeee

 

Okay, goodbye for now

have a great day peoples xxxxxxxx

Big update!

Basically my  ‘new’ boyfriend broke up with me 😦  I don’t know why I just think he wasn’t feeling the whole relationship thing. I was so upset at first but it didnt last long so I am fine 🙂
Now… I am still ‘iffy’ about how I feel about my best friend going out with the guy I liked (possibly still have feelings) I don’t know, it frustrates me

What to do?

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